Because the cycle just repeats itself. And then you wind up... [He pauses, almost stumbles over the worst. How often does he just...let it all out to people? Sometimes it takes a fresh ear to hear the squeak in the machine.]

...you wind up scared, because you keep getting reminded that everything you have could wind up gone--or worse, you could end up leaving everyone behind. And every time it happens that feeling just gets worse.

[He almost, almost prefers the idea of a permanent death. Fallen to the Heartless; at least then they wouldn't come back.]