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89. [Video/Action for travel group]

_{[A short while after the singing wild Pokemon and egg presents had died down, a rather unfortunate discovery was made upon dialing a number she'd been meaning to dial ever since Claudia Wolf and Kaito Kuroba had disappeared from Johto.]

[Already on the road, the weather's mild enough (even with the wind picking up) that Heather decided that was pretty much a good time to pocket her Valentine's Day present and just head off for a walk. Because lord knows, she needs one.]

[It's not the first time Johto has given everyone the gift of a precious little egg, but it is the first time that Heather's found herself resenting it.]

[The video feed pops on, focused in on a tiny, pale yellow little egg hardly bigger than a chicken's, nestled in the palm of Heather's hand as dry grass goes past underfoot.]}

It would be so easy to just... crush it.

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_{[Yeah. Minnie, in fact, probably knows exactly whose disappearance just pushed Heather over the breaking point.]

[The camera whips around to show Heather's face, and while it doesn't quite have that exhausted look she'd been wearing in days previous, instead she just looks so angry. She's practically trembling.]}

How do you know that?

How do you know I won't?

It's not like it'd be the first time I tried to kill something helpless!

_{[Her voice is a bark but the shake in it betrays the grief behind the anger.]}

[She doesn't even flinch. Poor child. Where can I hold you?]

She... they... wouldn't want you to. But I don't need to tell you that, because they believe you wouldn't either.

_{[Minnie, you have the patience of a saint. If only Heather hadn't wound up out in the middle of nowhere when the news reached her. At least she has her dad with her...]}

Yeah, well, fat friggin' lot of good their beliefs and wants did! They're gone, it doesn't matter what they thought of me. It's not like I'll ever see them again, EITHER of them! People don't come back that often!

_{[There's a definite crack in her voice now. She hates that she's raising her voice to Minnie of all people, but... it's like the only direction her volume can go at the moment is up.]}

[The anger has to go somewhere. So Minnie decides to be the place where Heather decides to vent, taking all the direct hits.]

You don't know that. This world is unpredictable. But... I'm not telling you not to feel sad. I could never say that. ... Can they have really left so easily? Aren't you proving now they are always with you, beating inside your heart?

_{[... Minnie... ;-;]

[The mouse's eternal optimism should make Heather even angrier. Coming from anyone else, it probably would have. But she can't be angry at Minnie. Not deep down, the way she can be at almost everyone else.]

[So it just makes her sad. Because she can't buy into the 'They're still alive in youuuu' logic. After everything she's been through, even before she'd come to Johto... she just can't.]}

No... that's the thing.

They ALL leave easily.

In a heartbeat, whenever this place feels like it.

It's so EASY and it SHOULDN'T be!

When people go away, there's supposed to be BODIES or GRAVES or just an ADDRESS that they went to! It's not supposed to be like this! People aren't supposed to just... BLIP in and out of your life!

_{[She sounds near-tears.]}

[Well, if the disney logic belief stuff won't work, we can always try tactic number 2.]

... It isn't fair. Not at all. I also wish there was someone or something to punish for the way our hearts continue to get damaged. Should it happen to you, I would be horribly upset... and I never want to imagine what would happen if I left. That's why I want to believe there's a way to control this... a way to find out how we got here. If we can find out how were taken, and find the way to use it, we could see all of our friends again... It might seem like a silly dream, but if I didn't believe in that...

[That's an uncomfortably long pause she takes.]

You know... it's okay to cry.

_{[It doesn't seem silly... naiive, maybe. But not silly. Heather wishes she could believe in it. There was a time when she could have... but that time had been a very long time ago. If nothing else, she's glad that Minnie can... but hearing it just makes her all the more painfully aware that she left that kind of optimism behind in Silent Hill.]

[The last statement gets an utterly mirthless laugh. It's not a cruel one, like she's been giving to some other people, but... there's no happiness there.]}

... I've already cried so much lately.

I'm tired of crying.

... It doesn't help as much as it used to.

[Again, Minnie takes no insult from any of this. She's known Heather long enough to know that the girl is never cruel or hurtful on purpose. She just slowly nods.]

But holding it in can't be of much good either. I wish I knew... the right things to say and to do to help you... but all I can do is offer myself. Because I miss them too... and I miss so many others... and I can't think of any words someone might say to make the pain go away. It would be presumptuous of me to think I can do the same to you.

All the same... I know it hurts... and it's a shared pain.

_{[... Well... most of the time, Heather isn't cruel or hurtful on purpose...]

[Heather just shakes her head, hollowly.]}

I haven't been holding it in.

It just... hasn't done anything.

_{[... But all the same, she does look up at the screen and even though the festering anger that's leading her to want to break that poor egg is still present, she also just looks incredibly tired.]}

... You were friends with them too. Right?

_{[Rise she knows. Kaito, she's not sure, but... well, probably. Kaito knew everybody, and so did Minnie. Or just about.]}

[A slow nod, with a sad smile.]

And, as much as I can help it, I will never forget them. Despite all the pain it has caused, I do not regret meeting them. And you feel that way too, don't you? That for all it hurts... you want to hold on to those precious memories.

... Of course I do.

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