You don't... you don't have anything to apologize for.
[She had paused to take in a deep, shuddering breath in some attempt to calm herself (like he'd told her to like three minutes ago) and it worked... somewhat. When she speaks again it's in that dull, monotonous tone from before. A mask for the upset rather than a sign that she's totally calm again, but it's better than all the shouting she was doing before.]
... I just...
... The fact that even... after I'd gotten away and grown up, even after she'd been dead for years, she still found a way to reach out and hurt me.
Hurt me worse than she ever did back when I was just a scared little kid.
... Like it never stops.
[Another pause for breath, along with the fleshy sound of hands being dragged down a face and an audible sniff.]
... That's why I was so mad. And I didn't... I didn't think about what I was saying to everybody, and I didn't mean t'make you think I was... I dunno. Implying that you were stupid or didn't understand loss or ... or any of that.
[voice] IT'S OKAY HONESTLY I WOULDN'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL TO SAY TO HER EITHER
You don't... you don't have anything to apologize for.
[She had paused to take in a deep, shuddering breath in some attempt to calm herself (like he'd told her to like three minutes ago) and it worked... somewhat. When she speaks again it's in that dull, monotonous tone from before. A mask for the upset rather than a sign that she's totally calm again, but it's better than all the shouting she was doing before.]
... I just...
... The fact that even... after I'd gotten away and grown up, even after she'd been dead for years, she still found a way to reach out and hurt me.
Hurt me worse than she ever did back when I was just a scared little kid.
... Like it never stops.
[Another pause for breath, along with the fleshy sound of hands being dragged down a face and an audible sniff.]
... That's why I was so mad. And I didn't... I didn't think about what I was saying to everybody, and I didn't mean t'make you think I was... I dunno. Implying that you were stupid or didn't understand loss or ... or any of that.
I just...