foolishwren | IC CONTACT (Victory Road)

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IC CONTACT (Victory Road)

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"Yo, it's Heather. I'm probably asleep or one of the Pokemon ate my 'Gear or something so I can't answer you right now. But feel free to leave a message or something.
I'll probably get back to you. ... Probably. Peace out."

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[ Walter hung his head, biting his lip. He couldn't protect Assumption. He shifted, sitting closer to Assumption and gently pulling the Cubone to sit beside him. Assumption didn't resist, looking up at him before leaning against his legs, still picking at the grass idly. He couldn't organise his thoughts as he began to reply ]

I don't want him to be hated. He shouldn't have done it, I told him that Henry will kill me someday but that it's fine, it's. It's just what will happen. But he got upset so I didn't talk about it again. I never thought he would do this, I never thought anyone would ever stop someone from hitting me. I can't lose him.

I'm never coming back to that city.

Edited 2017-02-04 08:24 (UTC)

no one should hate him

he did what any good pokemon would do

protect its trainer

im sorry this happened

He shouldn't have protected me. I wasn't going to protect myself.

I shouldn't have a Pokemon like him. It's my fault he hit Henry. He could have all the friends he wanted if he wasn't involved with me. But, I can't lose him. It's wrong and selfish but he makes me [ Feel loved. Like he isn't worthless. Like he matters. ] happy.

I shouldn't be here. I should be dead. I'm meant to be dead.

[ Walter slumped onto the grass, half curled around Assumption. He felt empty. Hallow. Assumption noticed him move and laid down beside him with a sad little cry. ]

stop

thats not how it works

just stop

It's how it always was.

[ She was a 'cult kid'. He rested his cheek on his arm, looking at Assumption. The Halo of the Sun looked back at him. ]

Most of the children at the orphanage didn't live. I had a friend, but he was taken away from me. I prayed to God that I would die, so I could be with Her and away from the pain. But Valtiel watched over me instead.

I'm not good. I don't deserve this. This second chance, any of it.

it doesnt matter what you deserve, you got the second chance anyway

this place doesnt care who deserves to be here or not

it brought claudia here

she didnt deserve paradise, she said so herself but she was here anyway

its not about deserving

your cubone didnt do anything wrong

henry shouldnt have attacked you

i dont know why he said those things

_{[Except she does. She'd said similar, cruel things to Claudia all those years ago, when Claudia came here. She'd stood in Henry's shoes.]

[But that only made this all the more exhausting.]}

im tired

Edited 2017-02-04 19:11 (UTC)

Me too.

[ He is tired. He's tired of the pain. He's tired of being told his thoughts are wrong. He's tired of being...this.

He's so, so tired.

Assumption peeked at the phone. He recognised that number and looked at Walter with wide, frightened eyes, tearing up. Did his friends hate him? Walter exhaled, touching his head to Assumption's before leaning back to text again. ]

Please let him see his friends again, when we return to Johto. I don't care what you want of me. I'll do anything.

He's scared they'll be angry with him for hurting Henry.

if anything theyre angry at henry

_{[And honestly, she feels like they're right to be. What had he been doing at the park? Why had he said those things? He could have said anything about what Walter had actually done. Instead he chose to say something about her Pokemon. About her.]

[She doesn't know what to think. He's asleep, and she can't get any more answers out of him right now.]

[This is all just so fucked up.]}

I know there are people who are going to be angry.

Do you mean it? That they really want to see him?

I can't go back to Goldenrod. Henry had said that if I returned, he'd do this. But I came back to see other people anyway, and this happened.

[ He came back to see the people who wanted to see him and who wanted to see his Pokemon. And they saw Henry before they got to see almost any of them. He still didn't hate Henry. Henry was doing his Divine job. He just didn't want his Pokemon to suffer and for some reason he just couldn't comprehend, they refused to see him get hurt. ]

of course they want to see him

wolf cried all night

nothing i said or did helped

look maybe people will be angry but im not

i mean i am but

not at your pokemon

i dont know how to feel

youre probably right about not coming back to goldenrod though

[ He thought about his...the people he had met. Manaka. Wrath. Asriel. The empty feeling washed over him and he let it, not even bothering to fight the flood. It was familiar, unlike the more alien feelings of...company.

He didn't like it but he knew this feeling so well. It was normal. It was all he'd ever deserved.

He lay in that feeling for a little while, wishing he could ignore his beating heart and need to breathe. He felt like he should be still. As dead as he felt.

Assumption made a soft sound, gently rousing him from his thoughts.

Is Wolf there?

hes asleep

it was a long night

_{[She knows she doesn't need to say why.]}

Assumption won't sleep.

I don't know how to make him sleep.

[ Walter had released his Pokemon when he finally made it to the HQ on this island before passing out, so they could watch over them while he and Assumption went to bed. When he woke up Assumption hadn't drifted off with him. He was still alert, holding onto his club, watching the door. ]

maybe it will help for him to know that henry is here with me and not going to bother either of you

He says thank you.

I don't know how he does that. I'm too tired to figure it out.

[ Give him a few days and then he'll start worrying about how his little Cubone is somehow communicating with him through soft, ghostly words. Right now, he's too drained to care. ]

yeah

im sorry this happened

_{[She already said that, but she forgot. And it kind of bears repeating.]}

Why are you apologising? This is how life is. How it always was, anyway.

it's not how it should be

I know. But things don't change.

but they do

you said it yourself that its different here

things change all the time

why do you think ive been giving you a chance

a few years ago id have treated you just like henry

but i changed

for better or for worse, who knows

I want things to be different. But it's too late for me. Our fates are in Henry's hands.

I'm so tired.

[ He set the Gear away from him, feeling a wave of emptiness and tiredness wash over him. His thoughts were a mess, fighting and contradicting each other. He let his breathing deepen and even out, focusing on each breath and closing his eyes.

He was so tired. ]

~~well henrys hands wont be doing anything for awhile because hes in the hospital~~

_{[She types that all out, and then deletes it.]

[There's not really anywhere else that the conversation can go from here.]

[They're both exhausted, and she doesn't have the energy to keep talking in circles like she knows they're going to.]

[Maybe everybody needs a little time.]}

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