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foolishwren) wrote2016-06-07 02:02 am
foolishwren) wrote2016-06-07 02:02 am
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IC CONTACT (Victory Road)
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"Yo, it's Heather. I'm probably asleep or one of the Pokemon ate my 'Gear or something so I can't answer you right now. But feel free to leave a message or something.
I'll probably get back to you. ... Probably. Peace out."
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In all seriousness, I haven't actually told him a single lie in the time he's been here.
In fact, I make a point not to.
[Not just because it would make it all harder and more unpleasant, but also because Walter is perfectly quick to call out lies when he thinks he's been told one. He'd accused her once or twice already, albeit falsely. No, bald-facedly lying would make this unnecessarily worse.]
I tell him as much of the truth as I can and just leave out the shit I'm not willing to take the risk of him knowing-- and it's not like he's ever straight-up asked me if I'm Alessa or not. I don't think the possibility's even occurred to him. He knows I'm a cult kid, that I was hurt bad and escaped and realized they were full of shit. Maybe he believes that and maybe he doesn't, but it's still true.
[A brief pause, and then that frost is replaced with a spark.]
Besides, who I am is nobody's goddamn business.
My identity got you killed. Got us both killed.
[And put through Hell, literally.]
I want to help Walter too, but he's still a cultist. Like hell do I want him to know that I'm Alessa Gillespie. What good would it even do?
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[He's frustrated at himself, he should have treated Walter as more of a threat but the cult kid thing threw him off and maybe his time here has left him more open. He's not sure if that's a good thing. But it's hard to go from complete shut in to talking to people.]
....I'm sorry Heather.
You are right, it is your own business. And honestly helping Walter .....that information might not even work. Maybe it might, it might make him realize that he's wrong but frankly... I just .....don't want anything to happen to you here. That's what's important to me.
Maybe I'm being paranoid, and I can just ignore him from now on, help Henry with that, if you want.
It's just that....if he finds out from someone that isn't you....we know random people show up here, we had Vincent here once....if he finds out from someone that isn't you....will he think you were lying to him anyway? And if so...what would he do?
[He sighs.]
I don't know. I just.....wanted to suggest it. Like I said it's your choice. That's not something I'd ever take away from you.
[He's lied to you about your past for so long because he thought it would keep you safe and that failed.]
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... No, Dad, I'm sorry.
You didn't... I don't think you did anything wrong.
This whole... thing is complicated no matter what way you slice it, and... it's a lot to deal with when you just got back.
[She pinches the bridge of her nose.]
For the record, I don't... I don't think Walter's a threat. Not now, and... probably not even if he found out who I was. I just... don't think ignoring him is the answer. He needs help, just like... just like Claudia needed help.
[She lets that hang in the air for a moment-- she hasn't thought about it a ton lately, but... Harry's return makes the dramatic difference between now and then even more yawning.]
... It's just sensitive.
I feel like... I feel like there's lots of ways that it could go wrong, and I've kind of been... juggling that for awhile.
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Okay, I'll keep that in mind.
[And yeah it's it's hard not to compare the two. Even if it's been less time for Harry then her, it was still a while ago.]
It is. And there are. But ....this is a new world and we have options here. Even if we have to figure them out ourselves.
Just remember you're not alone, alright? If I can help you think up a way to make this easier. I want to. It's your story but I'm the next most involved person here. ....and you're my daughter, I want to help.
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Shit's tough, but... this world is flowers and rainbows compared to where we came from. And it can heal over time.
I've had time to learn that-- Walter hasn't, yet.
[She just keeps telling herself that she'll get through to him in time. He's already made a lot of progress since he arrived-- she just has to believe in it.]
[But after sighing and kneading her forehead with her knuckles for a moment, she looks back to Harry with a bittersweet but genuine smile.]
I'm really glad you're back, Dad.
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[For so many reasons.]
....I'm glad you learnt that though. And I hope Walter does too.
[He really does. Their world to put it frankly was not fair, did not care about being fair and would destroy everything you loved if it could. And that town was the root of so much suffering, no child deserved that.]
[He sees her smile and smiles himself. Honestly all of their smiles are probably a little bittersweet after everything they've gone through but his is just as real.]
I'm really glad to be back too, sweetie.